Make A Day

What I want? What I need? That’s some of the questions that spinn in my brain.

It feel’s a little bit that I am lost and just don’t know what to do. All I’m doing is stumble around, and wonder what my future says. Which way shall I go? I don’t know. And now it is time for me to figure it out. To be for my self and thinking how I gonna work this life out. Because it’s only me and no other who decide what’s gonna happen.

Now i’m a big girl and have to learn how to do things by my self. Take responsibility of my mistakes and actions. Solves my own problem. Make my own future exactly how I want it to be. Of course I have done this before. But now it feels different. I’m feel lika a women, An independent women!

Watch out world – here I come

Stay cool – E

A big chapter in our lives. And probaly the best word in the world, and the most complicated…

So what is love?

“Love is patient, love is kind.
It does not envy.
Love is never boastful, nor conceited, nor rude;
It is not self-seeking, nor easily angered.
It keeps no record of wrongdoing.
It does not delight in evil,
But rejoices in the truth.
It always protects, trusts, hopes, and preserves.
There is nothing love cannot face;
There is no limit to its faith, hope, and endurance.
In a word, there are three things that last forever:
Faith, hope, and love;
But the greatest of them all is love”

I’m sorry I’m broken all this guide lines. There is no excuses. I know it’s know easy way you going through

I hope you will forgive me…

I’m never play with you, My love for you was truth and real. I hope our friendship will keep forever, Cuz you have been my best friend ever!

Love is not game! – Don’t play with it!

E

Empty, calm and a little bit boring, when there is nothing to do at work. This monday

I have checked out facebook,  aftonbladet and my mail. Elle Magazine and some other good web sites, i’m so bored!

What shall I do?!

 Well, I have do something good today. I’ve sell a bed earlier on the day. ( 33.000:- swedish crowns) And I have clean the storage. I’m surprise that this workday is almost over.

Update you when I come home. See you soon!

Stay cool – E

The smell of your skin lingers on me now
You’re probably on your flight back to your home town
I need some shelter of my own protection baby
To be with myself and center, clarity
Peace, Serenity

I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It’s personal, myself and I
We’ve got some straightenin’ out to do
And I’m gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I’ve got to get a move on with my life
It’s time to be a big girl now
And big girls don’t cry
Don’t cry
Don’t cry
Don’t cry

The path that I’m walking
I must go alone
I must take the baby steps ’til I’m full grown, full grown
Fairytales don’t always have a happy ending, do they?
And I foresee the dark ahead if I stay

Like the little school mate in the school yard
We’ll play jacks and uno cards
I’ll be your best friend and you’ll be my Valentine
Yes you can hold my hand if you want to
‘Cause I want to hold yours too
We’ll be playmates and lovers and share our secret worlds
But it’s time for me to go home
It’s getting late, dark outside
I need to be with myself and center, clarity
Peace, Serenity

Thank good this work day is over. Admittedly, I’m working tomorrow as well. But it’s a short day tomorrow and then I’m free one day!!! That means much to me. About a week and a half I go on my vacation.

This lovely evening I spend with my roomate Ida We make dinner Taco and watch at bad TV for a while, then I wearied of that and now I’m sitting here and try to find some good and easy web program/editor. I’ll do Ida’s homepage for her company and it’s slightly difficult, with codes and terms to understand. If you know a good program please make a comment on this contribution.

I feel that I really need to find out what to do in my future. I have goals in my life but I have to figure it out in which order I want to fulfil it. The world has so much to offer!!

Here is the highest priorities.

• Get a education – St Martin, London
• Travel – I can’t wait
• Buy a apartmant – I just saw my dream apartment, so cosy!
• Be a fashiondesigner – Top Designer!

It’s kind of expensive life, but I promise my self to do what ever it takes to fulfil my dreams. One of my part of goals is before I get 30 years being economic independent (that makes me sound like obsessed with money, but I’m not), I am fashion designer, have a own company. Have traveled at least half the earth. 

I believe in myself. Everyone have to have a lot faith if you want to success.

And remember, As my Mom use to say “- There is  no easy way to secceed. There is always hard work behind”.

Ok ten years left….

Stay Cool  

E

Empty, calm and a little boring day at work. Not so much to do. apart from It’s Gothia Cup in Gothenbourgh. And our shop is close to the football pitch. And it’s streaming people along the road outside. Sometimes a hole team comes in and chuck themselves in the bed. And they’re noisy, and just asholes! ( I mean kids, Gothia Cup is a cup for Juniors, ) We have to keep an eye on them all the time!

After work I went to the supermarket with Ida so we can refill our refrigerator. Then I went to the cinema with my colegue and two of her friends. We saw Mamma Mia! Crazy movie! My eyes was like saucer; it was not my expectations to see this lively movie. I were very very surprise. i had expect a calm romantic musical. I have to say that I hade never seen Maryl Streep that graceful before! The character she plays is happy, unwoorying, crazy, not very prudish, and has a past with many lovers. One of whom suppose to be her daughters father. The daughter, Sophie ( Amanda Seyfried) secretly invited them after she find her mothers old diary to her wedding. This bubbling musicalmovie is one of the best and offer one surprise after an other. It is hard to believe that Pierce Brosnan actually sining ABBA songs and wearing glitzy coloured pant’s from 70’s. Laugh out Loud!

I can really recomand it if you got a bad day or just need to laugh a little.

After that I take short trip to Trädgår’n and fall a sleep at Emma and Pauline’s home!

Keep reading – Stay Cool

E

Is it either one nor the other! Oversleep myself, again! And lot of work expecting me.

After lunch time a traumatic accident happend. I were by my self in the shop, my colleague were out and buy lunch. After a whilea  women with a big skirt came in and said, “Don’t be scared I’m not gonna steal something” Ok normal thing to said I think. Then further five people came and walking around in the shop. Now I feel a little bit uncomfortable. After a while I see that they have attack a rack with sheets and completly take a hand full of them and hide behind a lot of fabrics. And all of the other do the same. For one second I don’t get anything and next I went forward and ask one of them to show what she had take. “Nothing” Of course. and now  get really stubborn and mad, ( and I don’t want to dig in her skirt!? diiiiiisgusting) I ask again “What did you got under the skirt?” ” I have not steal anything” she said. And I don’t understand where my courage came from, All that I can think about were how much she got in there. and how she can keep it. What she have in there; baskets?! Then I go to the door and stand in front of it and say ” You’re not going somewhere before you leave all the stuff you taken. (very clever, NOT!) There was no voice that said they actually could be armed. The man take a step forward and push me away. Open the door and all of them went out and disappear around the corner.

Crap! were is the alarm. I have a phone in my hand and tried to call the police. But my brain doesn’t work, and I were  to chock to think that I have to write to 00 before 112 to get out of the network. Ok ok ok, what should I do, cry, run after or call somebody else for help. I call my colleague. She answer at the same time that she recently saw them jump in a car. I have my heart in my mouth, and could only utter ” Cathrin!!!” in the phone. The tears burned in my eyes. Then Cathrin understand why them act wierd and count out that is our shop that have been robbed. She came very fast, in the rush she snatch the thieves registernumber on the car. Then she come and larm the Securitas and then come the police and examined  me.

mmm Lovely day. NOT! the days from hell is continue. I wonder how this month gonna end!’

Whatevá – Stay cool

E

I’m Sorry I have to say this my dear.

It’s not supposed to be, you and me I fear.

I hope you can understand what I’m saying

 Can’t stop the tears, how much I even trying.

Please, this word’s come from my heart

I don’t want our friendship fall apart.

I’m Sorry

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